Sadness

Just went for my check up yesterday and found out my baby had died in utero. They couldn't find a heartbeat and then did an ultrasound. All my worst fears were realized. I think I was in total shock yesterday because I felt nothing. No emotions of any kind. It was not a good feeling. Today I feel great sadness and overwhelmed with emotion. I jut feel like sitting and doing nothing but that is not fair to DJ. He still needs his mommy to love him, hold him, and play with him. Life still goes on despite everything else.

Playing with water

We recently took DJ to the local outdoor mall where there is a 'waterworks' of sort where one can refresh themselves. It is quite the popular place in the middle of summer. This was DJs first time and had to have mommy walk him through it. He wasn't so sure at first, then he got the hang of it!

I have been very neglectful in not posting any updates in a while. Lots of things have been going on to blog about...but sometimes (alot lately) I've bee too tired to do anything! First off erlier this month Dave and I have done some hiking in the Jemez mountains and went to some Indian ruins. I am sad to say that this was the last time I was able to carry DJ in his backpack. Being pregnant can really zap all your energy and stamina!!!

Spaghetti

After a hard day at daycare, nothing beats spaghetti on an empty stomach!

I'm MAD!!!

I have to say I am not in the greatest frame of mind while writing this...but today I had my car broken into. I had my window smashed and my GPS stolen. I know that is not alot, but when you work hard for all the little things hat you have and then someone just steals it, it can make one feel very pissed and violated. I don't think pissed is a strong enough word for how I feel. I know these items are replaceable, but that is not the point. My trust in people is at an all time low. I am at least grateful that I was able to replace the window within a couple of hours of it happening, but it was all on me. My deductible was too high. Isn't that just a pisser?!?

Walking

DJ just started walking yesterday!!! He is so proud of himself! This is just a short video and from my phone so it is a little grainy. Hope you like it

Vacation

It's been a couple of days since we came back from California. The time went by so fast. It's hard to cram so many things in such a short amount of time. It's even harder when you have a little one who needs to take naps. All in all it was a good time. To start with, I got a chance to visit my friend Natalie, her daughter Avi and her son who is still baking in the oven. Next we were able to spend the day with Dave's daughter Jamie. This was the first time Jamie met her brother. They seemed to hit it off really well. He didn't give her the shy treatment at all. We also went to Disneyland which DJ did really at. He didn't get scared at all and was able to squeeze in 2 naps. The next day we went to a Dodger game which was a birthday present from my brother. I thought it was going to be an early evening and that we would have to leave because of DJ, but he surprised us and made it until the middle of the 8th inning. I do have to say we had a nice vacation even driving from Albuquerque to So Cal and vice versa with an infant and two dogs wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I do have to say we are very blessed.