Sadness

Just went for my check up yesterday and found out my baby had died in utero. They couldn't find a heartbeat and then did an ultrasound. All my worst fears were realized. I think I was in total shock yesterday because I felt nothing. No emotions of any kind. It was not a good feeling. Today I feel great sadness and overwhelmed with emotion. I jut feel like sitting and doing nothing but that is not fair to DJ. He still needs his mommy to love him, hold him, and play with him. Life still goes on despite everything else.