Sadness

Just went for my check up yesterday and found out my baby had died in utero. They couldn't find a heartbeat and then did an ultrasound. All my worst fears were realized. I think I was in total shock yesterday because I felt nothing. No emotions of any kind. It was not a good feeling. Today I feel great sadness and overwhelmed with emotion. I jut feel like sitting and doing nothing but that is not fair to DJ. He still needs his mommy to love him, hold him, and play with him. Life still goes on despite everything else.

Playing with water

We recently took DJ to the local outdoor mall where there is a 'waterworks' of sort where one can refresh themselves. It is quite the popular place in the middle of summer. This was DJs first time and had to have mommy walk him through it. He wasn't so sure at first, then he got the hang of it!

I have been very neglectful in not posting any updates in a while. Lots of things have been going on to blog about...but sometimes (alot lately) I've bee too tired to do anything! First off erlier this month Dave and I have done some hiking in the Jemez mountains and went to some Indian ruins. I am sad to say that this was the last time I was able to carry DJ in his backpack. Being pregnant can really zap all your energy and stamina!!!